It's seriously a gross situation and I want nothing else to do with hit. Hence the blocking of the feed. It will help. Out of sight, out of mind. It's just tragic though!
One of the things I'm working on is... ok I'm working on A LOT, but one of the things I'm working on is not over identifying with anything and everything I come into contact with. Not everything I see on TV relates to what I'm going through or is a lesson on how to handle things.
I'm struggling to believe this WHOLE thing. I mean WHY? Let's just say healer Meg has left the building and I'm in full on confused Meg Mode. If someone treats you THAT BAD, if you had an abortion to avoid drama with this person, if they do nothing but step on you and treat you bad? WTF?! Why? Why keep going back to them.
I'm struggling to believe this WHOLE thing. I mean WHY? Let's just say healer Meg has left the building and I'm in full on confused Meg Mode. If someone treats you THAT BAD, if you had an abortion to avoid drama with this person, if they do nothing but step on you and treat you bad? WTF?! Why? Why keep going back to them.
But that is not a question I can answer. All I can do, is what I've done. Which is to take care of me in this and to disconnect, unplug, and limit my contact to it in the future. If any contact is needed I will gauge what to do when the time comes.
It feels odd... blocking the feed and disengaging. I've done it with other people to avoid seeing negative things or being exposed to it. I think it's smart. I am responsible for what I expose myself to. And if I know that this is nothing but or source of icky feelings, I must Shield myself properly.
It's tough, though. I would say this is the hardest Detox of all!
Limiting and unplugging from social media. Deleting the app off of my phone. It's a great step.
Coming back into myself. There is nothing I'm missing.
Coming back into myself. There is nothing I'm missing.
Distractions are a bit tough, But I've manage to contain and not reach out. I'm proud of that.
Dinner with Tay at 6. That's ok with me. Just need to stay Whole30 while doing it.
I think it's working. I feel good. A little lull here, but I'm ok. After my meeting I'll have some celery and sunbutter and I'll be good to go!
It's feels nice to be weeding the garden. Getting rid of the things that I don't want growing there.
It's feels nice to be weeding the garden. Getting rid of the things that I don't want growing there.
